In a mirror is where we find a reflection of our appearances, but in a heart is where we find a reflection of our soul.
As I reflect back on 2014, I know that the transformations that have taken place in my own heart and soul will forever change the direction of my life. I have finally freed myself from the prison of my self worth being tied to my body image. My torturous relationship with food no longer runs my life.
I spent the past decade of my life trying to ‘fix’ myself, more specifically perfect my body and end my emotional eating. I thought that accomplishing these two things was the key to my happiness.
I continued to put my life on hold, telling myself that as soon as I figured this whole mess out, that only then, could I truly start living and enjoying my life. I was so wrapped up in this battle with myself that I had little to give to any other area of my life. My relationships suffered, my career suffered, I lost track of my passions and I forgot how to have fun. I prayed for help. I wished upon stars that I could change.
I thought that maybe one night I would go to sleep and awaken to an angel or my fairy godmother sitting on my bed and she would give me the epiphany that I had been waiting for. Needless to say, this never happened.
A little over a year ago I decided that I would do whatever it took to free myself from this struggle. I was miserable and exhausted from fighting myself every single day.
There were two major decisions I made that were absolutely essential to my healing journey.
Numero Uno: I made healing my relationship with food, my body and myself my number one priority.
For me this meant doing all that I could to make my life less complicated and stressful so that I could give my full attention to healing. I left a job that made me incredibly anxious. I was living in Florida so I packed up my life into my little car and headed back to my hometown in the Midwest. I moved in with family to help with financial stress (so grateful for this support!) I found a part time job while I worked on starting my nutrition practice.
This is what was necessary for me to have the time and space to really work on healing myself. We are all in different positions in our lives but I encourage you to take a look at your life and figure out where you can decrease your stress. If you have people in your life who can help support you while you make these changes, I encourage you to reach out to them.
Numero Dos: I invested in personal coaching.
For years I was determined to figure it all out on my own. I became a holistic doctor. I studied the crap out of nutrition, exercise and healthy living. I moved across the country twice to work and study with leaders in holistic medicine.
I still struggled. I knew so much. I knew everything I should do.
Why oh why could I not stop struggling with food?!
It was not until I invested in working with a coach that I started to see shifts in my attitude toward food and my body. We dug deep. I was finally able to uncover what was really going on…and it was about so much more than food and how my body looked.
I reconnected with my desires and my passions.
I gained clarity around my business.
I believe that every woman deserves to feel beautiful, healthy and confident.
My intention for 2015 is to help women create peace with food, love their bodies and their whole self and live passionately.